Happy Anniversary :)

4 years ago today it was hot.
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Like really, really HOT.

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I wanted to get married in June,

because rumor was June is the best wedding month, and

who wouldn't want to have a wedding in the best wedding month?

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We were young.

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Well... maybe I was young. Judd was 27.

I was 21.

Young.

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Most of the unimportant decisions/thoughts/ preparations that day seemed to mean everything,

and the things that meant everything seemed to be at the back of my mind.

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-Would the cake get there on time,

decorated the way I wanted, to match the cupcakes?

-How did the yard look for the outdoor wedding?

-How does my hair look?

-wow I really like the necklace

-Should I wear the shoes, or just take them off...

but if I take them off I'll be too short.

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-How should we arrange the little jellybean boxes to look nice on the table?

-That is a whole lot of chicken salad

-Do the gifts I got my friends all match the cards and the bags they go in?

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and on and on went the ridiculous thoughts that came on my wedding day

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I think the more important thoughts about my wedding day

have happened the years following

as I reflect on how great a day it was.

I think I was too young to realize the lasting results of that decision.

To me,

on that day I was getting married to a really great guy,

who I thought was hot and who made me laugh.

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Looking back on my thoughts that day

I never realized that I was marrying the man that would turn into my best friend.

The person I can always talk to.

The person that somehow always understands me,

and makes me feel like I am the best thing in his life.

The person that makes me feel safe when I am worried,

and sane when I am crazy.

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On that day

I didn't realize that the handsome guy in the suit

would turn into a wonderful father.

One that would stay up all night when one of the kids get sick,

and bring me ice cream for dinner when I was pregnant.

One that would work all day to support his family,

and hurry home to be with them.

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I had no idea

that we would turn our house into a home

and fill it with babies.

That the first baby would make us so happy

that we'd want a second...

and even more.

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I couldn't foresee the sacrifices that we would make together

to do the best we could for our family.

And with that

I couldn't see just how difficult some of those decisions would be.

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I didn't realize then

that working through the tough times would bring us closer.

Or that forgiving takes less effort than holding a grudge.

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There have been a lot of good times and a lot of trying times in the past 4 years.

If I would have known then just how good it is now...

I may have settled for a May wedding :)

Happy Anniversary Judd!